Thank you Immanuel for your quick reply,
I am trying to be there for people. It would be tragic if "the lost sheep of 'the Children of Israel'" were not receiving someone to help guide them again. After all, it has been 2000 years, a long time, since the last time and Eysua's teachings seem to have been overshadowed by some nonsense concerning him despite that he was very clear about things.
We must remember some of his utterances that quite well shine forth through the corruption (except need to be formulated a little better in accordance with Aramaic grammar): "The I is in the Originator (Father) and the Originator (Father) is in the I", "separate/distinguish the spirit/mind from the bodily/flesh", "to know yourself is knowing your Originator" and "...shall be like angels". Eysua taught these things, but his words became "blurred" and lost in translation.
So now, let us continue in the footsteps of Eysua and those before him, and continue their mission and our mission. And I am Emanuel of which has been told to come but whose coming was hijacked by a medieval impostor, Muhammed, and I have come to reveal to you a complete manifest (Quran means Manifest/Testament) which words indicates something is laid open bare, like "black on white" (a saying speaking of ink on white paper). No longer is the lore of the 'High Community' intended to be partially shadowed by ambiguity but everything laid forth crystal clear, and the only issue is people who still refuse to accept the revelation because of the gullibility of their very existence. The Manifest (Quran) has already been made written and so now we only have to decipher it and put it in order for mankind, and obviously like with Eysua interpreting the Jewish elder scriptures so that people became astonished, so it should not be a wonder why I enter the picture "slapping so-called scholars on their fingers" and show people an intelligent concept from this.
Understand, similarly history repeats itself, there is an elderly writing people do not understand very well and then there comes an insightful mysterious man and simply beating everyone at understanding its passages. And similarly understand Eysua did not write a revelation of his own but he simply elaborated something in existence which was mysterious Jewish writings, their lore. Clearly, if someone focused at deciphering the Torateh (Torah) honestly, they would discover as much as Eysua revealed to people 2000 years ago. That writing was clearly intended to be ambiguous in origin and why people have been kept in the darkness, since they did not conceive the mind seed of their origin(ator) as they kept to their misleading accepted dogmatic doctrine.
The concept of "To be who is/Being" is there in the Bible between the lines, one of the only straightforward translations is in the "I am who I am" found in it (Exodus) and in Genesis it was made written "Mankind was created in His image". There are hints within a tragically distorted rendition.
It is wise if you begin to suspect I am not merely a rambling man but actually have quite some authority. However, I am not a king but a leader, a guide, I do not belong to a hierarchy and you shall not elevate me ever. I am as you and you are as me, we are just at different steps on a stairway, and so we all have the same "seed" within us. Only to fools I will be a king and sure I will eventually dictate their fate, but not in the style they portray their god (eternal hell with hateful punishment etc).
I have been meditating every couple of days for the past month or so and honestly the experience is amazing. I do not see past event of any past life, just my current life.
Just remember the meditation itself is no magic, make it no ritual like the religious people make praying a ritual and it only helps you see straight and whatever you do in your life will affect what you shall see.
That opening in the sky that I saw was terrifying but I wanted to go past it, like I want to leave my body. However, I've never heard voices or anyone speaking to me, which I'm hoping will happen one day.
You must not expect the communication to you to be what you may be thinking. It will not be verbal but more like intruding thoughts on your mind and the only way to tune in on those is if you can master the body of Adam and "silence the beast". When you do not have "autonomous thinking", i.e. thoughts that wander to the mind on their own and you are in total command of your thinking, then you can know when "external communication" is taking place for you. If the 'High Community' did communicate to every poor fool, then people would become delusional, which you probably can understand yourself. The intense mental communication will be misinterpreted and the person who is closer to an animal than an advanced being will be superstitiously biased and run off with their own deluded ideas. Such has happened. So therefore no one who is not ready will receive such communication and it is as I said not verbal but more like an assimilated/symbiotic simultaneous influence on the mind (externally originated thoughts, much like telepathy but there is no voice).
However, obviously the 'High Community' can manipulate the spatial surroundings in order to communicate, but that only happens if it is deemed necessary for some reason. Anything is possible if one is in command of the "Nuur" ("light") as the projected mass of the universe can be controlled entirely and bent into any form or movement.
The mind becoming elevated can gradually also manipulate the world through their influence, this is because the Being is symbiotic. One day you may understand this and if current plans are working as intended, I will be able to show something very manifest to you, which I expect to be impossible to deny (hint: drastically change the creation with the mind, an even more intense experience than the healing of Eysua). Only those greater than I will be able to put a stick in the wheel for me, which they will likely do if I am not conforming to determined prophesies. Obviously, it is not intended that those "unworthy" are supposed to be brought up to speed, so I cannot be too spoiling. You understand probably yourself that if the 'High Community' had the intentions, then there would be voices coming down from the sky and all sorts of mysterious occurrences happening and things would not look as they do, and you could probably find the 'High Community' having embodied representatives right on Earth. This is clearly not the intention and it is supposed to be hard to believe and so with me it is still to be required some intelligence and wits in order to follow me, but thinking enough and one will understand I am the one I say I am.
So it is required of you to build up some confidence in something you cannot clearly perceive yet. Self-confidence is of utter importance in a world of delusion.
I'm not going to lie but I still follow my desires.
What kind of desires? A wish or dream is not necessarily bad and to imagine yourself being someone better than who you are is not deluded but it is about the contents of the dreaming and if it is influenced by the instinct (Satan).
As I have read from you previously, you have instinctive desires however and those you have to get rid of and you shall see they are not necessary or pleasant either. Such realization comes automatically by striving towards perfection and you shall find you lose interest in it as you progress. The only danger is if the still primitive state of your mind puts a stop to the trend and you think you are taking the wrong steps and revert the progress and return to what you were doing before you got better. That is getting cold feet. Have no doubt that the Earth was created to offer pleasantries but that they should be enjoyed is just a kind of trickery. Every time you sin, never tell yourself that it is okay and be determined that you have to get better and find techniques in order to prevail over the instinctive desires. The increasing mental strength due to growth will help you along the way to continually take new steps on the stairway. It is like a fight with yourself and you must not lose. It is almost like schizophrenia, and comparing our situation on Earth is much like schizophrenia too, as your mind grows forth there will nearly be like the two of you and this "alter ego" is like your nemesis which you cannot kill either but have to patiently coexist with and help to be tamed much like a dog has to be tamed. Best is if you can live in harmony with your "alter ego" and come to terms with it and still be its master and so the "animal in you" has your respect and behaves well, much like a dog that has its master's respect and is cared well for by its master.
Yesterday was different, I was out at a park on a bench .. decided to write down everything I want to accomplish in life with a message at the end to remind myself that I'm not a mere human but God's greatest creation lol. Anyways walking home, I felt something was watching me, I had goosebumps, hair on my arms were standing and I felt a little dizzy. That's when I went home and meditated and what occurred was as I've stated in the previous post.
Your mind is not exactly a creation but more like a clone, a type of procreation on a higher level which left off seeds, of which one seed is innately in you and can begin to develop. It is if someone, let us say "God", dropped down seeds of itself on the ground and then those seedlings are left there to grow entirely having to survive on their own in a foreign environment, but the plant/tree can put out its branches according to its own will and so the smart one covers the ground beneath them so that seeds coming up as weeds do not choke it. The hastily assembled parable is supposed to show you something, I hope you understand. What I am saying is that the seed is very potent and has potential to become whatever it wishes and it can be creative and find ways of fending off in the hostile environment. Yet, like our friend Eysua once said, the seed is like a mustard seed, it is so very tiny and from that must something come forth. He used the term "mustard seed" because it is so easy to miss it yet discovering it and taking care for it and it will grow into an enormous tree, metaphoric to how deep and powerful the mind can become. He used the tree because its branches are very widely spread out and so it keeps the sunlight off the ground beneath it making it harder for other plants to grow too close to it, meaning weeds do not overwhelm it. This is what our friend Eysua meant by his parable.
Without your-self you are nothing and too weak, your mental being must be used in order to grow because the Earth is "programmed" to choke you and you are not helped (except very little) towards what you need to do. The willpower of your seed (NAFS-KUM! NAFS = "Integrity Forth Spirit") must be allowed to show itself. It is only in this world that you are a NAFS, if you make it you are an absolutely complete (Al-Rahman Al-Raheem) Being (Allah) with a NAAS = Mind = "Integrity Be Spirit". Learn that everything is descriptively and ingeniously in the nature of the Arabic/Semitic language(s) and become accepting I am an authority when it comes to knowledge. Those who expect a "God" to become revealed from Heaven and the prophets to be persons confirming what they believe in and that they are going to guide them and that God is indirectly going to guide them for their whole lives from the unseen, ARE NOT GOING TO PREVAIL. Because of what people in their delusion have fantasied about for millennia and somehow made into dogma, a prophet (insightful = nabi) will not reveal what they expect him to reveal and therefore you have the contents of this forum which contradicts everything that religious people believe in. Also learn that I am an independent Being and those above me are not me, and so I am I, they are they, and you are you, and so two established seeds are two potential beings, two potential leaders (of existence), and so communication is peer to peer if we compare religious belief of "God" then "God" to "seed" is one peer to another and you can if you believe it "stand on your own legs" (metaphorical) and be in control and no one is angry about it (as long as you are goodly). And this is why the unity of the Beings is written Allahem when it comes to everyone included of "those who are Being". And TO BE is TO BE BEING"
I've been through alot the past two years maybe it's taking a toll on my. Anyways I will keep meditating till I find my True Self! Thanks for all the advice, you've been great and helpful.
It is through turbulence that you may find the opening that you require. Personally, as Emanuel, it was through turbulent years the last decade I never got established in the routine everyday living of humans and so I got much time to contemplate and therefore an opening to set an independent goal ahead of me which I chose and it was the best kind of decision that I could make. I did not use the terms I discovered later back then, but I kind of told myself to grow my mind and accepted that there is something supernatural about my existence and I would alter my lifestyle in any way which could nurture my development and I kind of grew into understanding that "everything is possible nothing is impossible" and only the world/Earth (our physical reality) provides boundaries and that the mind we possess is "flexible" and can expand to encompass more. When I decided to change my life, I was quite ignorant compared to what I know today and now I have a confidence I did not have back then, but I am glad that I made the changes today and I have realized I can benefit others as well and somehow realized I have been living according to some (as it can feel sometimes) weird prophecy of the past which mentions a person which goes from living in badness/wrongfully to living in what is goodly, and that this person would not have the prophecy move on until learned to reject the badly and choose the goodly and so there is kind of a trigger to the next step.
I know through the prophecy roughly what is about to happen; there will be a chaotic time in the world, actually much worse than ever, I am supposed to be a leader of people, "put a record in order and put it in safety among disciples" which I have inferred is the Quran and as far as I can tell I am explicitly told not to take sides and anyone who takes sides and to arms will be destroyed. It appears aggression in an unstable world will only add to the general aggression and severe complications. What I understand is that I am supposed to be offering a light in the darkness and be a well of information, but not dictate who is going to listen to what. From the non-interference command I have understood that intervention is futile and the unrest in the world is "according to plans" and nothing which can be prevented. People are going to raise arms against each other and nothing is going to stop it and trying through willpower to stop it will lead to annihilation because it is not the intention for it to stop. So the alternative is sheltering where it is safe and spreading the light in an otherwise dark world and be wise about what you say, not pursue instinctive desires and so you shall be protected from harm. Defending from unrighteousness may seem noble, but in this it is a losing war and not the instructions "from above". That people have been having a century of "milk and honey" is explicitly written out in the prophecy (Isaiah) too and that "brier and thorns" is going to disrupt the life of "milk and honey" is there too. So us who understand the prophecy are not going to gather on mountaintops, which is metaphorical for gather in camps who seek to dominate. We are supposed to be somewhere in between, where we cannot be targeted as we are not so clearly visible in "firing range". Yet we are not supposed to go into seclusion, but be for those who seek us, however not get involved in the primitive business of those around us.
Keep meditating on everything that you have learned and be doing which benefits your seed (= self = nafs) and you will have found your "true self" and you know yourself as a result and be aware that you are you and you can be Being and take your place in the universe.
Fare thee well
Qarael "Anurak" Amenuel
(A'nura'k = "Is your fire/light")