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Post by Aviel on Jun 21, 2017 18:08:21 GMT
Hello, As I told you before 2 years ago suddenly I got really sick. I've been to so many doctors from different fields, however, no one got a clue as to what might be the reason for it. Also, the wide variety of symptoms doesn't help at all, too. Now I do remember that 3 days before the downfall of my health, I had a very strange dream. In that dream, I was running around different apartments when in one of the apartments I stumbled upon a room where there was a man clothed all in black sitting on his knees with a big book in front of him. When he noticed me staring at him, He looked at me with hate, actually, no one ever looked at me like that in my entire life. Also, very, strangely enough, there was a black tattoo on his forehead, the tattoo was of an 6 pointed star, however not the star of David. The star was six-pointed but of another shape. I actually never seen this kind of geometrical shape in my life prior to this dream, to the best of my knowledge/memory. Right after he noticed me I woke up. Right after I woke up I took my iPad to draw the six-pointed star I saw on his forehead. This is a drawing of this star: I could not find any information about this kind of star If You know, please let me know. And 3 days after Suddenly my health and well-being started to go downhill. 2 years passed and things got worse, and they seem to get worse as the time goes. I look so sick that people don't recognize me anymore. IMPORTANT QUESTION! I'm feeling right now as this might be some kind of witchcraft made against me. Does witchcraft exist? Can the reason for this be some kind of black magic? What do I do if this is the case? It is very hard to handle my life when my health is getting worse day by day Thank you very much sincerely
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Post by rekkd on Jun 21, 2017 22:21:44 GMT
Why don't you list your symptoms and how you've changed?
No one can help you when you left out the most important information.
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Post by Immanuel on Jun 22, 2017 8:43:09 GMT
Hello,
Witchcraft does not exist. But, a "prophetic" person or the "high community" could affect your mind and body. That is not something called magic or "black magic" but "manipulation by mental force" and could be regarded as supernatural in human terms.
However, no one with such authority would will you the harm that you describe and as far as I can tell you have done nothing to warrant it either.
Why do you feel so bad? In what manner do you feel bad? How does it affect your health?
I cannot tell you anything about this "star" of yours, but I will keep it in mind and reflect upon it.
Be well Qarael Amenuel
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Post by Aviel on Jul 9, 2017 20:44:02 GMT
Hello,
My health issue is the following :
Ca. 2 years ago suddenly out of nowhere right after the summer break, shortly after as I told you I seen this strange dream, I woke up in the morning from a very stange and intense pain in the are below the belly button. Apparently as I know this day, what happened was that my veins going to the testicles started to malfunction and turned into varicose veins. Consequently this issue led to number of hormonal changes which men usually get after the of age of 50-60. Exactly speaking my Testosterone dropped by 25 % in a period of a year, my thyroid gland started to malfunction and my cortisol levels are out of balance, this as a consequence made my Estradiol to to raise over the double of its amount. Im not a doctor so I cant explain it fully what is effecting what and how, as the doctors themselves are telling me straight into my face that they dont really know what to do. A head-doctor in the local medical research university told me " We just dont have the ability to help you, the only thing we can do it is to give you painkillers and psychological support to help you to cope with this situation.
However, the facts are these : at the age of 19 in August of 2015, my testicular veins started to dysfunction, consequently this led my testicles to disfunction, which made my testosterone levels to drop and a also created a hyper-synthesis of cortisol in the adrenal glands, as the testicular veins are connected to the kidney veins. This two changes led to a number of hormonal chain reactions in the body, as the hormones are connected and dependent on each other. From the day my testicular veins started to dysfunction and to this day passed ca. 2 years. And in this relatively short period of time my hormonal profile turned into of a very sick old man in his late 60s.
All Im trying to understand is what did I do to anyone to deserve this as my hormonal profile is getting worse day by day and the doctors have no clue what to do as they say Im only 21 and should not have this issues, in addition they are not sure as to how to tackle this bouquet of problems. The fact that these faulty veins have no treatment and cure as to this day and because this topic is not well researched by the modern medicine doesn't make things easy too.
I know that God has the power to take this pity out of me, yet, nothing changes and IF there is a change it is only getting worse.
Ive been a very calm and peaceful person my entire life, however with this issue which gives a wide range of unpleasant and simply impossible to ignore cosmetic and non cosmetic symptoms is driving my mind crazy. It feels like a torture, and I cant escape this body of mine. What can I say, does this situation help my stay on this earth ? Does it provide me an environment for spiritual development? When I can even sleep in the night from strange pains and unpleasnt feelings all over my body. Where every part of the body feels inflamed and sick?
It all feels like a big sick joke.
Sorry if I may sound self centered, Im just very lost at this point of time, how to proceed, what to do .
Epicurus said, something relative to mine situation:
“Is God willing to prevent evil, but not able? Then he is not omnipotent. Is he able, but not willing? Then he is malevolent. Is he both able and willing? Then whence cometh evil? Is he neither able nor willing? Then why call him God?”
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Post by Immanuel on Jul 15, 2017 19:16:58 GMT
Ca. 2 years ago suddenly out of nowhere right after the summer break, shortly after as I told you I seen this strange dream, I woke up in the morning from a very stange and intense pain in the are below the belly button. Apparently as I know this day, what happened was that my veins going to the testicles started to malfunction and turned into varicose veins. Consequently this issue led to number of hormonal changes which men usually get after the of age of 50-60. Exactly speaking my Testosterone dropped by 25 % in a period of a year, my thyroid gland started to malfunction and my cortisol levels are out of balance, this as a consequence made my Estradiol to to raise over the double of its amount. Im not a doctor so I cant explain it fully what is effecting what and how, as the doctors themselves are telling me straight into my face that they dont really know what to do. A head-doctor in the local medical research university told me " We just dont have the ability to help you, the only thing we can do it is to give you painkillers and psychological support to help you to cope with this situation. Not to sound weird, but that would nearly be a dream scenario for someone like me, i.e. that the body would simply reduce testosterone production and cut the production of sperm. The case alone is nothing which you should mourn. My guess is that the applied medication may cause the described side-effects, something prescribed by ignorant doctors not understanding something beyond this world. If you ceased the medication unless there is some pain issue, I have a thought you would feel better or at least it is good to try. Even healthcare is about trial and error. The cause and effect of "varicose veins" may disappear eventually except that your blood flow may never be restored during your lifetime. I hope the pain will eventually disappear, but you may need to study whether the negative symptoms you experience right now are due to vain medication. However, the facts are these : at the age of 19 in August of 2015, my testicular veins started to dysfunction, consequently this led my testicles to disfunction, which made my testosterone levels to drop and a also created a hyper-synthesis of cortisol in the adrenal glands, as the testicular veins are connected to the kidney veins. This two changes led to a number of hormonal chain reactions in the body, as the hormones are connected and dependent on each other. From the day my testicular veins started to dysfunction and to this day passed ca. 2 years. And in this relatively short period of time my hormonal profile turned into of a very sick old man in his late 60s. Like I wrote above, you may have administered some medication causing ill side-effects and you should investigate further whether the alleviation of them would cease the negative symptoms that you experience. In all, you may look at it that you should stop fighting your so-called dysfunction and take whatever your fate has affected you with. Perchance you have been "helped" getting your attention away from the usual things a hormone-full teenager is indulged with and it is sad that you experience so many negative bodily experiences, however you may need to look into whether you are yourself inducing them upon you by the recommendation of confused doctors and scholars. I know that God has the power to take this pity out of me, yet, nothing changes and IF there is a change it is only getting worse. "God" has no particular use in "punishing" you in the way that you describe. It is fighting your destiny which may cause you pain in that case. Accept who you are and what you are becoming. If you become impotent, accept the fate and fulfill what you got to do in life. The reproduction of offspring itself is not a criterion in "beating the game" and sadness over not having offspring is vanity, if this is not possible or according to your destiny. Ive been a very calm and peaceful person my entire life, however with this issue which gives a wide range of unpleasant and simply impossible to ignore cosmetic and non cosmetic symptoms is driving my mind crazy. It feels like a torture, and I cant escape this body of mine. What can I say, does this situation help my stay on this earth ? Does it provide me an environment for spiritual development? When I can even sleep in the night from strange pains and unpleasnt feelings all over my body. Where every part of the body feels inflamed and sick? Once again I recommend you to look at what sort of medication you may be taking. Perhaps you require mental work in order to re-stabilize your mind. Be well Qarael Amenuel
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Post by Immanuel on Jul 15, 2017 19:41:19 GMT
“Is God willing to prevent evil, but not able? Then he is not omnipotent. Is he able, but not willing? Then he is malevolent. Is he both able and willing? Then whence cometh evil? Is he neither able nor willing? Then why call him God?” You first need to define what "God" is and secondly define what is evilness. I cannot answer for who you are and who you have been, but there is a logical answer to everything. The best thing we can do is to accept who we are and where we are and make the best out of it and not pity ourselves for it and feel jealous over how someone else might have it. I have virtually been through hell in my life and lived almost hopeless about the next day and thinking it would never end, but I put the guilt on no one, not even "God" who could have rescued me from the situation I was in. Such experiences should harden a mind and not the opposite, you must not let it defeat you. Instead, for every setback make stronger pursuits in becoming a better you and know this: "The Earth is out there to consume you", this is its purpose and you should not fall to its agenda. It will try every weakness of yours and put your attention to the weak spot so that all of your conscious ability is focused on the wrong thing or something which puts your focus away from what you should be concerned about. We have already concluded before that the Earth was made to be what you consider evil. If it treats you meanly, this is what it was designed for and for every advancement you make spiritually its attempted grip on you will tighten and the way it "attacks" you varies and your weak spots are those targeted. The basic thing that a person has is their integrity/confidence (iman/amen) and this is a fundamental thing in a person which can be targeted and the reason why you are exposed to what you consider evil and letting that crush you is defeat and only diminishes the spirit of your soul. Even if a person might feel they have a fortune and prosper (in a worldly manner), this is the Earth's method of deceptively being evil towards him/her, so never be jealous about anyone on Earth and you are only responsible about yourself and your development and even in immense pain for something which feels like forever while still retaining or developing your integrity is more beneficial than letting it consume you. The pain will have an end if you are determined and keep positive despite the negativity in your life and know your body is an extension to your soul which is imposed on you because you have failed to develop sufficiently yet. Anyone who observes the Earth objectively will understand that it is cruel, crude and primitive, yet its creating force was superhuman, and they will understand that the spirit of our soul is something standing above its flesh. Be well Qarael Amenuel
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Post by Aviel on Jul 15, 2017 21:13:30 GMT
I see Amenuel,
What anout food? Can it be tasty? Or is it still bodily? I mean when I sit to eat something and I taste the food and it tastes good, I feel kind of guilty, thinking that I'm giving pleasure for my beastly part of me.
So ideallly shouldn't food consumption be only for nutrition sake? So no seasoning, or any other means of making food taste "good"?
Right at this point of time, knowing some part of the truth so to speak, I'm no longer willing to become a lawyer, because as sillly as it may sound but my main motivation for this carrier choice was because of economical reasons. Among all the available professions I my country, lawyers have the highest salary, and adding to the fact that my family is relatively poor, living dependent on the state, I was motivated to become "wealthy".
Also knowwing all the stereotypes associated with lawyers, and how a new lawyer in the field would need to accept any kind of job to get by, be it even defending a murderer. I cannot proceed with this path in my life.
It is just all the people in my life family/friends are "worldly" so I cannot even ask my parents about these things. They actually believe the earth was made for us to enjoy it.
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Post by Immanuel on Jul 16, 2017 7:18:59 GMT
Hello, What anout food? Can it be tasty? Or is it still bodily? I mean when I sit to eat something and I taste the food and it tastes good, I feel kind of guilty, thinking that I'm giving pleasure for my beastly part of me. You can judge that by the 10 directives. However, you can also reflect upon it logically. Food with no seasoning at all, particularly meat, is barely edible and you feel even more like an unsophisticated beast when eating it. Perhaps an excuse to become a vegetarian though. On the other hand, if you think this way you cannot eat herbs because they are a sort of seasoning as well, you cannot forget our seasonings are made out of herbs and which themselves hold some nutrition value. Let me guess, the creator made it so that your consumables contain taste by default and you can consider it a blessing. It is just imposing you unnecessary complications not consuming the spices since the herbs they are dried from contribute to your well-being. However, if sugar is considered a flavor and part of seasoning, I would say sugar is a root of many problems. Sugar is compared to spices addictive, and except in very low amounts with is already acquired from foodstuffs, sugar gives no additional benefits and messes up the metabolism. Sugar is like a poison and sucks you to it more than tea or coffee. If it is something you should be wary of it is sugar. Sugar gives a false sense of happiness too and the rush is short and you wish for more. Salt is necessary in low amounts, but beyond that salt is a health hazard. Avoid salty food. But if you eat salt in vain, remember to take magnesium supplements or food containing high amounts of magnesium. The magnesium counteracts the effects of salt and imposes less danger on the kidneys. Consider it an antidote. But preferably, learn to lower your addiction to salt instead. Furthermore, drink additional water with consumption, the body already reacts by increasing the thirst naturally which can be said is a response indicating intoxication and dehydration and you will have large deposits of salt in the kidneys for a time until it passes out in the ureter which may turn into kidney stones if you are unlucky, usually if you are born with high risk or simply eat so much so your kidneys cannot handle the salt anymore and the salt packs together as stones which cannot exit the kidney and they get stuck in there thus causing some really painful experiences. Same kidney problems can occur with too much Calcium too e.g. milk (and adults should not drink too much). The only antidote is high amounts of water and magnesium, or shock wave treatment at a hospital which can be very painful. Rule of thumb, focus more on how much you eat and what you eat and not so much about the pleasure as a side-effect of the taste of individual food ingredients. If you can hold yourself within reasonable food consumption, instead consider the flavor to be one of those things that can help you pass through life. Be well Qarael Amenuel
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