Post by Wanderer on Oct 4, 2017 17:36:59 GMT
Helllo,
I tend to read this forum regularly. And I decided to share with you something that happened to me recently.
I was having a lot of negativity recently in my life and had 24/7 anxiety and worry.
Now on yesterday I was laying on my bed and staring at the sky through the window. I was again having this worst case scenario thoughts and a lot of anxiety, basically feeling hopeless and lost.
I started to look at the spiders on the window and thinking how miserable and sad their lives are. I thought “Look at this spider, all he does is trying to find some hug to eat so he can survive yet another day in this world. However he is a mortal, so he can try to run away from the date of his expiration, but it WILL come one day.“ Then I thought “Wow, it’s so meaningless, He cant escape the faith of expiration. As if he did not even exist, he will cease to exist”
And than I thought “How are humans betttr than this spider for example?“. Lost in this world, like blind puppies, creating their own meaning of this life they have here on earth. One makes football his meaning other just living life to the fullest. ( In other words, just get as much pleasure as possible and avoid as much sorrow as possible).
Then I thought to myself, what is the point then? If I die and my consciousness cease to exist, it is like I never lived, and even mathematically speaking any number inferior to infinity, cannot be compared to infinity because the difference is that big. In other words, even if I get to live one billion years in this world, it is still nothing compared to infinity.
I kept thinking, what is the point? Someone created all of this and keeps track of every thing in this reality, but what would be the reason? Than I though, It’s not realistic to think that ME is my Brain which is just a slimy squishy thing inside my skull.
WHEN SUDDENLY A VERY SATURATED AND BIG ROUND RAINBOW APPEARED ON THE SKY. It was almost as if it was around my house, it was so close and perfectly like a circle around me. Every line of color was very thick and wide, every color was very very saturated and bright, as if I looked at a TV screen. It’s duration was about 1-2 min and it dissapeard.
I dont what to think of this, However I see this as a sign from God. Still not sure 100% as sign for what?
I mean fx. the Bible says that God introduced Rainbow as a promise that He would not make another worldwide Flood ( Correct me if Im wrong)
Yea, felt like to share this with you, as I see people here are very spiritual, as maybe You have some opinions or some words that I can benefit r learn.
I tend to read this forum regularly. And I decided to share with you something that happened to me recently.
I was having a lot of negativity recently in my life and had 24/7 anxiety and worry.
Now on yesterday I was laying on my bed and staring at the sky through the window. I was again having this worst case scenario thoughts and a lot of anxiety, basically feeling hopeless and lost.
I started to look at the spiders on the window and thinking how miserable and sad their lives are. I thought “Look at this spider, all he does is trying to find some hug to eat so he can survive yet another day in this world. However he is a mortal, so he can try to run away from the date of his expiration, but it WILL come one day.“ Then I thought “Wow, it’s so meaningless, He cant escape the faith of expiration. As if he did not even exist, he will cease to exist”
And than I thought “How are humans betttr than this spider for example?“. Lost in this world, like blind puppies, creating their own meaning of this life they have here on earth. One makes football his meaning other just living life to the fullest. ( In other words, just get as much pleasure as possible and avoid as much sorrow as possible).
Then I thought to myself, what is the point then? If I die and my consciousness cease to exist, it is like I never lived, and even mathematically speaking any number inferior to infinity, cannot be compared to infinity because the difference is that big. In other words, even if I get to live one billion years in this world, it is still nothing compared to infinity.
I kept thinking, what is the point? Someone created all of this and keeps track of every thing in this reality, but what would be the reason? Than I though, It’s not realistic to think that ME is my Brain which is just a slimy squishy thing inside my skull.
WHEN SUDDENLY A VERY SATURATED AND BIG ROUND RAINBOW APPEARED ON THE SKY. It was almost as if it was around my house, it was so close and perfectly like a circle around me. Every line of color was very thick and wide, every color was very very saturated and bright, as if I looked at a TV screen. It’s duration was about 1-2 min and it dissapeard.
I dont what to think of this, However I see this as a sign from God. Still not sure 100% as sign for what?
I mean fx. the Bible says that God introduced Rainbow as a promise that He would not make another worldwide Flood ( Correct me if Im wrong)
Yea, felt like to share this with you, as I see people here are very spiritual, as maybe You have some opinions or some words that I can benefit r learn.