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Post by cerulean on May 31, 2018 8:31:11 GMT
I feel like I've became mentally vulnerable to sinning. A sin, or what I consider anything that I do that doesn't match my principles completely shatters me and makes me want to vanish for that span of time.
I feel like these sinful actions are going to make me lose my mind from all this cycle of going from good to bad to good to bad.
And I feel like I'm at this point where no knowledge can help my case, nor am I looking for any new knowledge and any search for new knowledge would only be me trying to run away from my responsibility.
I think I'm at that crossroads where I must act, at all times, according to my principles; AT ALL TIMES. A single tiny misdeed and I can feel the heat, and If I do not act quickly it leads to something, to another, and the heat keeps rising, to complete loss of control.
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Post by Immanuel on May 31, 2018 10:39:11 GMT
Sin, as Eysua (Jesus) refers to and I as well, is when one does give in to fleshly/bodily desire. It is driven by the instinct of the animal in which one resides and while it is natural for it, it is relatively embarrassing for the self-conscious being if aware about the primitive nature of it.
A life in sin hampers the mental growth and resistance to it exercises the strength of the mind.
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Post by Immanuel on May 31, 2018 10:43:47 GMT
The stronger the situation with desire the more willpower it takes to resist it.
A good way of measuring (judging) a person is by looking at their priorities and behavior. Unfortunately, it also makes you feel further alienated and outgrown of this world, since you see everyone's venture in life is autonomously driven by instinct and is not really independent.
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