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Post by rekkd on Jan 17, 2023 7:06:07 GMT
I haven’t been active on this forum for a very long time but I’ve always had it as my only bookmarked website on my phone and visit it often.
I’ve been having what they call Derealization/Depersonalization - I literally feel like everything around me is not real and something is really messed up. Like holy shit I’m trapped in some place and I’m not sure why or where (I do know my unit number and address but I mean like where in reality).
I have a gut feeling like all of this is really evil to be honest, I’m not sure if people around me are real or not. Sometimes I think maybe this is a test for only me… am I the only one who thinks differently. Why did I come across this forum, are you guys/gals real or just clues and hints.
If I die, to me this world is no longer real just like waking up from a dream. Unfortunately I have no control over what or where I go after I die and no solid complete answer.
It’s a sick loop - even if the 10 commandments mentioned here several times are real they still don’t answer certain questions like why does God want complete beings? Why not create complete beings from the beginning instead of letting them develop? When I sleep most of the time I don’t dream, I’m pretty much like a dead person but with a heartbeat, imagine really dying? I look around me and life is so meaningless, wake up workout, eat, watch some videos, work, sex and sleep.. it’s a horrible cycle that never ends.
It sucks I was created such a weak being with no real control over my body nor do I have the final say in what happens to my consciousness after I die. Even if I follow the so called 10 commandments they still decide if I’m good enough or not.
I’m actually really tired of it all and feel sad about it.
The only thing I truly and strongly believe was said in this forum is that this world is hell - everyone alive or these NPCs just don’t know it yet. Everyone online is talking about the matrix and getting rich etc.. but that’s still in the matrix. I feel super alone and no way it makes sense that out of 8 billion people only probably less than a 100 feel something is wrong. It doesn’t make sense to create this giant world for such small amount of results. It’s just not logical.
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Post by cerulean on Jan 21, 2023 13:15:28 GMT
Quickly thought about revisiting this forum, and came across this post, and another old post called "Positivity versus Negativity" that Immanuel wrote. I suggest you read that post very carefully.
Also want to share this idea, we're generally unprepared for this advance in technology and the internet and how easy it is for these external things to snatch your attention away from you, leaving you with very little time that you can spend (if you wish) resenting yourself or other people. Don't let your feelings submerge you now...
Good luck out there
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Post by Immanuel on Jan 25, 2023 18:41:46 GMT
I haven’t been active on this forum for a very long time but I’ve always had it as my only bookmarked website on my phone and visit it often. I’ve been having what they call Derealization/Depersonalization - I literally feel like everything around me is not real and something is really messed up. Like holy shit I’m trapped in some place and I’m not sure why or where (I do know my unit number and address but I mean like where in reality). I have a gut feeling like all of this is really evil to be honest, I’m not sure if people around me are real or not. Sometimes I think maybe this is a test for only me… am I the only one who thinks differently. Why did I come across this forum, are you guys/gals real or just clues and hints. If I die, to me this world is no longer real just like waking up from a dream. Unfortunately I have no control over what or where I go after I die and no solid complete answer. It’s a sick loop - even if the 10 commandments mentioned here several times are real they still don’t answer certain questions like why does God want complete beings? Why not create complete beings from the beginning instead of letting them develop? When I sleep most of the time I don’t dream, I’m pretty much like a dead person but with a heartbeat, imagine really dying? I look around me and life is so meaningless, wake up workout, eat, watch some videos, work, sex and sleep.. it’s a horrible cycle that never ends. It sucks I was created such a weak being with no real control over my body nor do I have the final say in what happens to my consciousness after I die. Even if I follow the so called 10 commandments they still decide if I’m good enough or not. I’m actually really tired of it all and feel sad about it. The only thing I truly and strongly believe was said in this forum is that this world is hell - everyone alive or these NPCs just don’t know it yet. Everyone online is talking about the matrix and getting rich etc.. but that’s still in the matrix. I feel super alone and no way it makes sense that out of 8 billion people only probably less than a 100 feel something is wrong. It doesn’t make sense to create this giant world for such small amount of results. It’s just not logical. It is maybe awkward to hear but it is good that you are uncomfortable with things in this world. It means that you on a subconscious and maybe even conscious level understand things. It is painful to feel like this but you must realize that it is not all bad too. I reassure you that not everyone is an "NPC" even if the grand majority of people are i.e. most people are of those all around you. It is a mix of people, some are empty husks with a spirit that never grew, the seed is there but it is dead, and then there are people who are stuck in an evil loop being victims that do not have the ability to escape the grip of the bodily, even if they have some sort of development of their souls. I would not judge everyone around you, there are people with less development than yourself but they are just "soul seeds" like yourself albeit on a slightly lower level. It could have been you in an earlier incarnation, and with the right direction in life they could be equal to you in development. Judgement takes a lot of wisdom and it is simply easy to be wrong about it, and it is important to be careful. Do not get me wrong, judgement is good to have, but it requires a lot of control and it is easy to be unrighteous, so it is better to be slow to judge. Then there is a difference between judgement and condemnation which I have written about before. Judgement is more forgiving than to condemnation, if you understand my words. If I told you should be slow to judge, then you should be even slower to condemn. Condemnation is what Jesus really spoke of in the Gospel where translators have written judge, so that people believe judging it totally taboo, which it is not whereas one should be careful as to not pass the wrong judgement. Very well. It is good that you believed in anything at least.
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Post by Immanuel on Jan 25, 2023 19:01:10 GMT
It sucks I was created such a weak being with no real control over my body nor do I have the final say in what happens to my consciousness after I die. Even if I follow the so called 10 commandments they still decide if I’m good enough or not. The world is hell that you concluded in your last refuting message aimed at my teachings, and that is true. If you take the only thing that you really believe about what I have ever written and then realize that you have to be stronger than hell, then you might realize I was not entirely wrong that you have to grow your own Being in order to cope. You would realize I am actually 100% correct if you really reflect that the only way to not be doomed to a worthless existence is to be above hell and have a mind that actually "feels" and "consciously" knows that they live in a nightmare. Then take in that this was created like hell and that someone's totally unemotional agenda cause you to suffer like it. I do not condemn you for being angry with El La Hem (Elahem/Elohim) because many times I wonder what kind of evil things they are. However, if you despite the evilness all around you "get your shit together" and stay strong, you will see that things which mysteriously are called Karma and so on will lead you through life and will relieve you of much of the suffering. I have been accused of arrogance and being on a pedestal for calling myself a prophet of God but return to me when they spoke to you and tried to fool you into traditional worship. It is like they say about women humorously, "can't live with 'em, can't live without 'em", the same is true about El - La - Hem, you might harbor really annoyed feelings about them, but you cannot escape the truth of how things are. Ironically they seem to like me because I am not easily misled like a sheep, while they brought me through fire and hell. I have written about it before, they go to great lengths in deceiving you and it is arguable of how righteous they are by human standards. Their agenda is to push you to hellish levels, to see if you break down under pressure and if that is exactly what you do then you will unfortunately lose. It is important to remain sane even if you are pushed towards insanity. I would not reject my teachings but instead reread whatever I have written over the years here on the forum. Did you know that they responded that the Earth is what is called Gehennom (Gehenna)? After that my work has indicated over and over that this is the truth. So every time you look at the Earth, understand that it was made to be this way, it is a Hell on Earth. If people behave like maniacs, realize the Earth is manic in itself. There is no fix to the Earth, it was made to be like this and it has always been from the dawn of human existence on it. Do not try to fix the Earth is my advice.
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Post by Immanuel on Jan 25, 2023 19:01:43 GMT
Realize that I have posted things 1169 times over the years.
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Post by Immanuel on Jan 25, 2023 19:22:40 GMT
Quickly thought about revisiting this forum, and came across this post, and another old post called "Positivity versus Negativity" that Immanuel wrote. I suggest you read that post very carefully. Also want to share this idea, we're generally unprepared for this advance in technology and the internet and how easy it is for these external things to snatch your attention away from you, leaving you with very little time that you can spend (if you wish) resenting yourself or other people. Don't let your feelings submerge you now... Good luck out there Some days I have resented my own post called 'Positivity versus Negativity' but I kept the post without deleting it because it is not wrong but it invites for a dogmatic lifestyle without a careful implementation. It was meant as a kind of spiritual assistance but not to be read word by word and implemented as such into someone's life. I added that it is important to find a sort of balance between between the two states of mind. I urge anyone to not strive hard to be happy because it will blind them, but it is also important to stay away from sadness. Real happiness comes when one is getting happiness of the simplest of stimulus, it is important to create one's own expectations and being, and stop comparing oneself to another one's life. Dalai Lama has good lessons about that, he is not totally unsmart. The number one source of unhappiness is because people are thinking they must achieve the goals of others who search to achieve worldly goals, and that this is the definition of happiness. I would say people do not even know what happiness is and that they search for it in vain. People believe that happiness comes from achieving things and this is very well true but they compare themselves to others who may not have goals which have any real meaning, and like we know the best meaning is the one meaning we create for ourselves. It is about bringing value to our own ego, so to speak, while it might sound controversial and wrong, it is just because people have told you so. There is nothing wrong in valuing the own person, no matter what people have ever written even spiritual leaders who were not so spiritual. It all boils down to judgment, state of mind and actions and what you do with it; i.e. you are not acting arrogantly and evilly towards others. It is the downfall of every person if they cannot accept how good they are and how good they have become, or how good they can become. Never believe that when you thought you had heard everything you need to know that you have done so. Always look critically on human morality and whether it is simply just emotionally tainted opinions without substance. One of those examples of a human instinct called jealousy which might cause illogical rules against being allowed to embrace the own person. Even the word ego has a negative connotation while that entirely depends on whatever it is that you do with your ego. There is absolutely nothing wrong in appreciating your own being but like I wrote like 2-3 times already it all comes down to what it is that you do with your abilities.
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